I am in love with two guys.

I have been dating my long term boyfriend for 6 years, and my short term boyfriend for one year. after my long term boyfriend and I dated for 5 years i couldn’t take liking this guy anymore so I decided to date him so now I have two boyfriends. Its february now and I have been dating the new guy i met on 2-10-11 and yesturday it was our one year…and i have been dating my long term boyfriend for 6 years, as we started dating on january 1st 2006. Now its 2012 and I have been dating my longer term boyfriend for 6 years but i started having another boyfriend for one year, which technically means i have been cheating on him for one year. I am 19, my longer term boyfriend is 19 and my 1 year boyfriend is 21. I feel bad about having to boyfriends…I’m having my cake and eating it to. no one knows I am dating 2 guys accept my mother. They both have no idea. How can I continue these two relationships? I need real advice because I know what I am doing is not accepted in society. I love them both. I love two guys. I am not trying to be selfish or anything, I really am in love with 2 guys. Help I need advice. I am praying for answers. Note: I did not have intercourse with these two guys, but I did do sexual things with both of them. No I am not worried aout Std’s because the 6 year guy has never been with anyone else and the 1 year guy hasnt for 1 year AND he got tested. Both of these guys do not cheat on me but I am decieving both of them. It makes me feel like I am married to the 6 year guy but I have a boyfriend for 1 year. I am not married so its not as bad as people may think, but its still not accepted in society. What should I do? If I continue I know the results could be DISASTEROUS. I know how nad it may be but its not like I am wed. I am praying for help. I feel dirty for doing this but I also do not feel as guilty as I should. I started a year ago because I liked both of them and I wanted to pick one a year ago but I just couldnt bare being without the guy I have been with for 5 years one year ago! 6 years vs. 1 year….umm it may seem easy to choose but I love them both equally and I can’t bare choosing still! Please help!?