He desrespects me and doesn’t care about me and my baby.

I’m a mother of five.im envolve with this man for 5 years now .we had a baby girl together.our relationship is not stable we fighting all the time.the fight started when i was pregnant i think it was the hormones and we broke up when i was 3months.and he came back after birth my child was 5months when he came back claiming that he love me he cant leave withouth me and i take him back after he reveal the secret that he was leaving with his neighbour because he was stranded the time of our fights and that lady is pregnant and he told me that lady seduce him because he was tranded and he end up sleeping with her and staying with her. now the gilfriend is now leaving in Durban and claiming shes pregnent so she cant leave her because of the child i ignore that until the lady fone me and tell me that my boyfriend he dont love he is using me .he tell her the bad thing about me .that im older than him i had the children with different fathers wich is true i told the lady that it was not my wish to get the separeted children no woman wish that.i dint have the luck to get someone to love me marry me .but all my relationship was come and go .and i dont know why .i ask myself why but i dont have an answer i have everything u want in a woman but all that i doesnt count to all man im involve with.after moths 2 or 3 he told me that they broke up that lady sad she got the miscarriege and i dint say a word.we continue loving each other .our love was so strong until he told me that he can see that i love him and hes willing to pay lobola for me for the next coming months June i was happy to hear that i was so excited that i find the man.after that conservation he started to be so scares to me when i fone him he will say im busy im sick im not here im far away i will come when i came back.and he did came back we continue .last week he sad to he want to tell me something but hes scared and i force him to tell and he end up telling me that .u remember the time i was not around i sad yes he sad to me he done some terrible mistake and his tired of hiding the secrets because he can see tha im serious about him. he sad he he was inlove with other lady and this lady is pregnant and he agreed that the child is his.and it was his wish to had a child with the lady who doesnt had a child in her life so he can be first man to had a child with the sertan lady .because all the woman that had a children with them he find out that they had 3-4 chilren so that was his wish .but hes not leaving me he will continue marrying loving he want to spend the rest of his life with me. so sis dolly im very angry ,confused,because this man he is cheating he sleep with all the ladys hes not respecting me he dream what he want to do and do it .hes not scared of anything he dont care about me my baby because hes a man and he want 2 wifes in his life .please my sister help me i dont know what to do ,because since of this madness we are not communicating anymore and i dont care because im angry and confused and ask myself what is happening with me .why all this happen to me .who is gonna love me who is gonna see me as a woman.please help